Friday, May 23, 2014

Just one more day of being happy and I hope a lot more.

Sometimes it is really hard to keep the spirits up when your mate is seldom in good spirits. It is difficult to be upbeat all the time and I do not want to lose my good feeling about how much better I am just because the non-hairy human is always  negative.  The hairy one that thinks he is human is needing his ears cleaned.  That will add to the tensions because Joe never thinks I do it right.  From the minute I joined him for my breakfast he has contradicted most of what I said.  Don’t know what to do with him or what to do without him.  He does not want me to drive even though they told me I could drive after a week.  I need to get flowers for Alan’s grave and I want to go out before Memorial day.  He has not answered me when I asked him if I could go get them.  You know, I guess the reason you never get reconciled about a child’s death is because that child is with you for 9 months before he makes it into this world, then you are responsible  for him the rest of his life, in a way.  Alan was single, so if he had a relationship problem, he talked to me.  He was painfully shy when he started kindergarten.  So I would try to give him extra support.  We were so close as he grew older.  The Navy helped him gain confidence.  To put it simply had I been able to take the MS from him I would have.  He didn’t deserve it.  He could find happiness in the simplest things in life.  That is my son in a small part of his life.Sorry for the downer, I just should not have written today.  Tomorrow may be better.

8 comments :

Paula said...

Not a downer. I'm sure it is good for you to talk about your wonderful son that you still miss so much.

shirl72 said...

Lucy that is what friends are for
to listen good or bad. It saves
a psychiatrist bill. Telling a stranger about your problems thinking he can solve them.

That is what I tell my friends you
just saved me $150.00 for a 30
min. session. Stress will not help the situation. So Be Happy...

Sheila Y said...

Don't ever worry about writing what you feel,traveling this road of life isn't always easy. ((Hugs)) Sheila

TARYTERRE said...

This is the weekend to honor him. Do not apologize.

DD said...

Dear Lucy,
I have not been there, so I can only imagine the heartache of losing a precious son. I hope you will feel better after visiting his grave and placing flowers there.
On a lighter side: Lucy, do not let the non-hairy human get your spirit down..haa. Keep thinking of how much better you are! Isn't that wonderful? Keep a little prayer of thankfulness under your breath.
Sending love,
DD

DD said...

Dear Lucy,
I have not been there, so I can only imagine the heartache of losing a precious son. I hope you will feel better after visiting his grave and placing flowers there.
On a lighter side: Lucy, do not let the non-hairy human get your spirit down..haa. Keep thinking of how much better you are! Isn't that wonderful? Keep a little prayer of thankfulness under your breath.
Sending love,
DD

jack69 said...

Yeah, keep thinking of the better feelings.

I have an idea if I lost a son, OI would think about it often.... I am glad it has not happened to us.

Love fromhere...

Chatty Crone said...

I am sorry you lost a son - I did not know that. And I think my hubs is having one of those days today too!

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